I’ve always looked up to my dad. When I was growing up, he
was a very tall, dark, and handsome man. In his prime, he was around 6’2” and 180
pounds. He was the strong, silent type. He never stayed mad long. He persevered
through his life and found some pleasures to enjoy along the way.
Now, he is a little bent-over 88-year-old man of about 5’11”
with a much weaker voice than I remember. He’s more compliant and doesn’t want
to make a ruckus. I still look up to him—in more ways than one.
In Crazy Love by
Francis Chan, he talks about God’s constant love for us as our Father. I always
knew my own dad loved me, but I don’t remember hearing the words very often.
Now, he tells me often that he loves me because he knows his time is fleeting.
God has told me He loves me every day of my life. He’s never
stopped, never grown tired of me not responding or never telling him those same
words in return. He’s been patient, caring, merciful, and given me more grace
then I deserve.
So what’s the difference between these two fathers? In my
small finite mind, I believe the difference is love. God has told me from my
conception that He loves me. In Psalm 139 He tells me He knew me when I was being
formed inside my mother. He has loved me through my youth, teens, and young
adult years when my decisions may not have pleased my earthly father. God has
loved me without fail and has continued to love me unconditionally all 64 years
of my life.
My earthly father loves me, but as with all humans, that
conditional part comes into play a lot. I’m sure he had dreams for me, but I
haven’t been known to conform. I’m sure I’ve disappointed him in some ways. Striking
out on my own even as a young child, I would often just do my own thing and not
stick to the rules too much. God loved me even through those times.
It’s great to have the love of two fathers—even if that love
has been different through the years. I appreciate both of them and know that
my heavenly Father has the greater plan for my life, the beginning and the end
both within His sight. I look up to both of my fathers with respect, praise,
and thanksgiving.
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